wow...is been a while i didnt touch on this...well...too much of things keeping inside the heart ain't good so i decided to type it out instead of hiding it myself...well is kinda hard feeling when u wanna propose to a girl but u dono how to propose it...a simple "ILY" maybe will be the best thing to say...i watched those movie saying that looking to your loves 1 and tell her what you felt for her...in reality...it's not easy as v think off...MX, maybe i shud have grap the chance during sem 1 but i juz too afraid that i will get rejected...i kia su...i admit it...to be honest, i think tat i m quite okay with everything but why can't i get a gf? i really don understd why those ppl who are not educated can have gf but me as a still studying student can't get a gf? sometimes i think i m such a failure...really failure...i wanted to propose to you now...but idk what shud i say...i turn on my laptop everyday juz hoping that you will find me in skype...but not even once =X...ya...i understd tat...maybe i m not the type of tea you are finding for but perhaps give me a chance to show myself to you how well i could treat you with...i swear to god that i will protect and love you until the end of the day comes...i m kinda "dry" as ppl said...nid moisture abit to become a boy back...well to my ex..ya i knw you're having a good life now...can see that in ur pics...perhaps last time i m juz too confident in myself that i could get her == stupid...really stupid...i sacrified you for her...really stupid, if not i couldnt think of how happy v can be now...well XH..thanks for everything you given to me...this is our memory..i will keep it in my heart forever...well MX...i really hope that god could help me up...hopefully tat this page could somehow flows to your eyes...love you...idk how you feel to me but i m definitely loving you...i wanted to protect and love you...will miss you always =)